So I took a nap today and awoke in quite the grumpy mood. One thing I am proud of is that whenever I am in a mood I am usually aware that it is just that, "a mood" and that with enough effort and time I can snap back into my usual cheery self. Often, I can learn from these moods by looking at what intensifies the mood, what causes the mood, and what things make me happy even when I am in a mood.
A lot of people take walks, or listen to music, or do drugs to calm themselves. I usually go workout, think about the mood while working out, draw some conclusions, and if the conclusions are decent enough, write them here.
So the big thought for today goes something like this. I am generally in love with the world and humankind but for the most part don't really like people. One thing I have always prided myself on the most is that I can read people. If I meet a person I am very usually able to know their intentions, a general idea of the thoughts in their heads, their insecurities and so forth. I am usually able to draw the good or bad essence out of people, analyze their motivations behind that good/bad essence and then decide if they fit into the generally good or bad category (I'll probably write a later blog on just this). What I discovered today though is that my reading people powers only works on simple people. Then I thought to myself, if I really dislike people so much, why do I have such good friends? What do all my friends have in common? I think it is that I can't exactly read them. All the people I genuinely like, appreciate the company of and value my relationship with are complex. I feel they all have some deep aspirations and dreams that they are striving for but also have conflicting priorites/concerns. Basically all the people I genuinely like I feel have the same inner battles I do and go a little deeper than "I can drink 13 more beers than you"
So thank you to everyone I love for being complex and living for more than simple reasons. I genuinely appreciate you, am glad to have met you and look forward to growing as a person with you. Rarely am I sincere in an expression of emotion, but I really mean it this time.
(BTW you people I am talking to should know who you are. Bitches)
Side notes:
1. Pat Quinn, contrary to popular belief, does not rape children (even though I am sure it is a struggle for him every day to resist)
Other things that have been getting on my nerves recently:
1. Nothing is secret anymore. There are cameras everywhere. Anything anybody wants to find out about you they can. You can't get away with anything anymore
2. There are not enough hours in the day
3.If you have a mental problem (like I do) where you really like to be right, life is really frustrating because in this day and age technically nothing is right and no matter what somebody can argue the opposite side so really even though I HAVE to be right I never can and thats fucking frustrating
4. There is a slim possibility that McCain could be elected and honestly that stresses me out every G'Damned day --- On a further note, if that were to happen I would be even more stressed out because gaining citizenship in another country can be difficult, and I imagine flights out of the country will be packed if he is elected and how do you tell your parents you are leaving the country?
5. There are so few good journalists out there that dont just badger and badger til they get the candidate to say what they want and then leave the situation.
Things that Made me Happy today
1. There was this cute little kid with his mother at hotel vetro today just running around and talking about what he wanted to do.
2.The kid suddenly switched languages and started talking to his mother in German, I understood every word and learned that it was his birthday which is even better
3. We gave final project pitches in Film class today and nobody clapped for anybody's pitch until mine and people said, "wow" and similar things
4. Out of about 12 ideas for the Bran and Park shoot, mine was picked by a landslide
5. I took the time and made a delicious sandwich today
6.I had a funny realization that my sophomore year of highschool and sophomore year of college mentalities have been very similar
7. Geoff is playing at the Mill tonight
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